uncertaintyyyyyyy

theres a lot of exciting things going on with the Lows...and a lot of uncertainty. we are ecstatic and simultaneously wary at the same time.

We do now have a HOME! as of june 24th our official residence will change from Bryan to Dallas
We are moving EVERYTHING up there next weekend then i will live as a vagabond for another week and a half while i finish work

and speaking of work....ive been so stressed with work itself lately that TONIGHT it has officially hit me that i only have a set place of employment for 3 more weeks.....that's quite a bit unnerving.

luckily i will have the financial and emotional support of my handsome, wonderful husband.. BUT..if you know me...im quite independent...and i KNOW it will all work out and brent will take care of me but i like to be able to contribute....its just a hard concept to swallow......but its a little nice to think i get a little break to get some general STUFF done.....

(i dont know it you see the wish-washy trend here ;)

i am rather excited to think i have DAY time to finish my supplemental PA apps, PAINT and organize our apt, plant some homey greenery on our porch, address change, acclimate myself to the new BIG environment, see my husband everyDAY again finally, see SOOO many of my friends again as we will live in the same town again....jennifer, sarah, rachel, sean, kristen, justin, amanda, erin, lisa, kim, allie, nat...i could go on and on trust me.

and of course., look for work! ive got some contacts trying to help right now soo please pray hopefully that something will happen from that b/c that would be SUCH A HUGE BLESSING!

and last but not least....i am really nervous/happy to live in the big D. as much as i love it....i have to admit i have never ever lived there...ive never stayed there more than a max of 5 days even...ever..... its going to be quite a new experience for me

ok so heres my game plan to keep as grounded as possbile
#1. Pray. hard. I KNOW God will take care of us, that whatever happens will only make us stronger, better people, and that i have support to help us transition

#2. im going to try to take Brent's advice and RELAX and take one thing at a time
(he actually told me tonight when i told him i was stressing that he was wondering when this would sink in b.c i had been oddly calm thus far). Plus hes my honey....i know with all my heart he'll take care of me just like i take care of him and we will rock this!

#3 be PATIENT (whispers..."try")

#4 keep working on the diet b/c im feeling GREAT about my weight loss and the last thing i want it to not only be stressed, busy, and unemployed...but back to hefty as well-that will not do.

btw......im currently at 19.6 loss since March as of last week.....trying to get to 20 lbs before i leave the B/CS.....

#5 be PATIENT

so there you have it....my little fearful, faithful, freakin out, friendly, fired up, funky, full of enthusiasm FEATURE for you!

oh and brent and I finished our project 365 a few weeks ago! i am actually very proud of the finished product....if you want to check it out go to my facebook...ive got it all layed out adn explained. eventually brent and i want to turn our work into a coffee table book!

YEAH with a capital EAH!

So i know it has been quite a while since my last post.... basically my absence was mostly due to my insistence on finishing my PA school application by June 1st. My own personal goal and i made it! as of 7:56 pm on 06/01/2010 i am officially done with the first part of the PA process....let me explain

the PA school application process begins with the centralized PA school application
once this is submitted its on to the supplemental applcations from each individual school you applied to
then comes the waiting game to find out if you got any interviews (in the fall)
then if you get the interviews, theres the intense prep for the interviews
then after interviews comes another waiting game to find out if you get in
if you find out you got it now comes the actual SCHOOL part :)
so thats 2.5 years of intense schooling, then the PA compentancy test, then your first job! lol

its really not so bad as it seems... thats just an overdramatization of a simply tedious and tricky process!

but dont get me wrong... I AM ECSTATIC to have the big application off my plate!!!! i feel very excited that i met my goal and can move on to my other ventures.......


so now that the big daddy of my time is done....on to what else has been going on with me....

Brent started a new job in Dallas a few weeks back so we have been doing the long distance thing again for now the 3rd time in our relationship...this time it sees a little bit better (little i say, just a little). i really think the only reason is that i know itll be over soon and ive had so much to get done around here. i miss him like crazy! its amazing how i feel im falling in love with him more and more every day

so right now brents getting his feet wet with the new job which he seems to like, finding us a new place to live, and getting us all set to move up to the big D

and as brent does that in Dallas, im starting to pack our little apt here, get things together to change addresses, declutter our space, and take care of loose ends in general

and i realized i havent updated you on my weight loss updates! :)
so as of last week i have officially lost 17.8 lbs!!! i havent lost a pound in a month but at the same time i havent gained any back so its still quite an accomplishment. I met my second weight loss goal which means i get to buy new fancy jeans but so far i havent found ones i just "have to have " yet plus its starting to get to the mid-90s range here so jean-buying is not my top priority right now :) my goal is AT LEAST 5 more lbs, 10 would be ideal. 10 more off and it be as easy to maintain as i have been now for a month at my current weight should be good :) and i was actually ok with the way i looked in a bikini last week- lets say it all together- PERSONAL GROWTH. :)

i started softball again with S&W last week- GO GANG GREEN! :P

and i have a girls weekend coming up this weekend in Houston and Galveston that i cannot WAIT to get to!! i have been pumped for it for months now! we're going to celebrate birthdays, applications, graduations, sand castles, shrimp, and girls being awesome!! :)

so i will keep you posted on all of these goodies i just gave you! im sure this next month will entail a ton of changes! :)

a-b-cs ! jumped on the wagon with lara and jennifer :)

A
- Available: for hanging out awesome people... yes. for dating... no..i married to the best husband ever
- Age: 24
- Annoyance: SMACKING! and leaving messages that say...hey call me back...tell me what you want so i can prepare
- Animal: MOOSE

B
- Beer: double gross
- Birthday: October 4
- Best Friends: so many wonderful friends
- Body Part on opposite sex: smile ;P
- Best feeling in the world: a heartfelt hug
- Best weather: beautiful fall afternoon
- Been in love: STILL!
- Been on stage: many times
- Believe in magic: Yep
- Believe in Santa: of course, why do you think i got an apt with a fireplace?

C
- Candy: snickers
- Color: teal...although dark purples edging in
- Chocolate/Vanilla: mix
- Chinese/Mexican: CHINESE for sure!
- Cake or pie: cake
- Calculus: i can handle it if you make me
- Continent to visit: Europe most definitely
- Cheese: provolone

D
- Day or Night: hmmm Day (but not mornings, lets clarify)
- Dance in the rain: absolutely

E
- Eyes: blue/green/gray
- Everyone: whos reading this is AWESOME! love you!
- Ever failed a class: oh no, i wouldnt be alive to complete this lol

F
- First thoughts waking up: really? is it still not saturday
- Food: miss it
- Favorite T.V. Show: GLEE, LOST, friends, psych, bones

G
- Goals: get into PA school, lose 10 more lbs, do more of my art projects, move to Dallas
- Gum: i dont know, i do like trident
- Get along with your parents: definitely
- Good luck charm: Brent :)

H
- Hair Color: right now......dark reddish brown
- Height: 5'6'' and a little
- Happy: of course!
- Holiday: Christmas
- How do you want to die: doing some extreme sport when im like 70...cliff jumping or something

I
- Ice Cream: blue bell vanilla with strawberries
- Instrument: guitar or piano....or guitar (things i like, not play)

J
- Jewelry: always welcome, esp necklaces
- Job: patient educator

K
- Kids: super cute....as long as their not mine :)
- Kissed: love it!
- Kickboxing or karate: kickboxing
- Keep a journal: kinda

L
- Longest Car Ride: prob henderson to illinois that i recall...i did henderson to washington dc when i was 5 but i dont remember it
- Love: My husband, my family, my friends, shoes
- Letter: L or M..its fun to write
- Laughed so hard you cried: yes, thats the best kind
M
- Milk flavor: white?
- Movies: drop dead gorgeous, role models, notebook, wow drawing a blank right now
- Motion sickness: nope
- McD’s or BK: McDonalds mmmm

N
- Number of Siblings: 1
- Number of Piercings: 2

O
- One wish: that brent lans a job he enjoys

P
- Perfect Pizza: cheese with wheat crust
- Pepsi/Coke: neither...Dr. Pepper all the way

Q
- Quail: not impressed

R
- Reason to cry: bad days
- Reality T.V.: american idol
- Radio Station: ? i guess candy 95 for now
- Roll your tongue in a circle: in a loop yes

S
- Song currently listening to: the theme song to the office
- Salad Dressing: not really a fan...but asian is the best recently
- Sushi: love it!!
- Skipped school: prob 1 o twice in college that i can recall...im such a rebel
- Slept outside: in a tent? yes mam, and on top of a cliff too
- Shower daily: eh, say every other day
- Sing well: i think so
- In the shower: all the time, thats my best stage
- Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberries

T
- Time for bed: way later than it should be for when i get up. usu around midnight
- Thunderstorms: not my fav, but i dont appreciate a cold front

U
- Unpredictable: id say so!

V
- Vacation spot: Anywhere! its a vacation

W
- Weakness: french fries and macaroni
- Which one of your friends is most likely to read this: prob...sarah
- Who makes you laugh the most: Jennifer
- Worst feeling: failure
- Wanted to be a model: for sure...after all the wedding hoorahs you see why models like it
- Where do we go when we die: Only God knows
- Worst Weather: texas summers!
- Work out? recently 6-7 times a week

X
-X-Rays:teeth, foot, and chest (ive been told i have long lungs)

Y
-Year it is now: 2010
-Yellow: i like it! its happy

Z
- Zoo animal: otters

LAST PERSON WHO…

You went to the mall with? brent
You went to dinner with? brent
You talked to on the phone? brent
Made you laugh? the office
Hugged you? hmmm i think someone at work
Said they loved you? brent
You cried over? prob a rude patient...oh no..when i hit my head on the counter ;P

Project weight loss UPDATE!

so as of April 8th, i have officially been working at getting it off for 1 solid month (granted there were a few "free-bee vaca days in there but i dont think the fresh fish i ate really broke the bank if you know what i mean). Anyway, at one month the results are in...... drum roll please....... dananananannanananannanananannanan...hold a little bit left on the snaaaaaare.... ......12.8 big ones!

so if you look back at my plan my 1st goal was 10 lbs (and maintain that a week) and work out 7 consecutive days and i would get incentive #1- spa pedicure

so last week i made that happen and i am pleased to say my pedicure was FABULOUS......too bad i cant wear flip flops at work to show it off but at least i know underneath those close-toed tennys theres some slammin toe work and the result of HARD WORK

working out 7 consecutive days is super hard....you really really have to be aiming for something to get that going! however once i go to my pilates class this afternoon ill have 2 weeks working out everyday. my prob was when i think, working out, in my mind that means get all sweaty, work as hard as possible for at least 45 mins. at our meeting this week the Dr. pointed out the idea is not to burn yourself out, just get your heart pumping at least a little while each day....and that the exercise 7 days is not only for your physical benefit but it helps psychologically get you into the fitness mindset....cause really...if you put in the effort to work out for 30 mins it makes you think a little harder if you want to ruin it with an 8 oz soda!

so thats my thoughts for now! he said usu the first couple of weeks are the most dramatic as far as #s go so the less you have left to lose the longer it may take so i gotta just keep my head in the game and go for those incentives! next up.....new jeans!!!!

random thoughts!

sooo i dont know if its cause im really anxious about PA applications opening in a week or just feeling like im in my 20s and i should try more stuff so i dont look back and regret it, recently ive been considering very random far fetched options.......... for example

1. im REAALLLY contemplating submitting an application and what not for the open auditions for Glee (like i said..super far fetched goals here) i doubt id even get honorable mention in the cs division but i figure Why the heck not, whats the worst they can say...no...keep working on it? granted, i get super nervous singing in front of people but i do really well at things where i dont actually see an audience so maybe this video...me not seeing anyone will work out in my favor...and then if it actually did go somewhere id just have to get over myself and do it cause thatd be awesome

2. im really contemplating this "ultimate job" application. in a nutshell...the irish newspaper is accepting applications for a fun couple to get paid to travel to destination wedding and honeymoon spots and blog/rate them for 6 months. it would start in may end in nov. just in time for thanksgiving and potential PA interviews! again, crazy far fetched and like a million people have sent in submissions (cause its the best gig ever right?) but i figure whats the harm in it?

3.third and crazily, im actually being successful in this weight loss thing enough that i might contemplate buying a bikini this year.....whoa!

and now instead of preping some PA stuff im going to sketch a little and think of some project i can do on my Cricut......... what a creative, day-dreamy day!!! just thought id indulge you with my crazy considerations of the day!

also, speaking of crazy.......so on my way to work this morning i noticed a spider on my windshield (outside of course for sanity sake). instead of just thinking, eww gross get it off somehow my mind wondered into..... i feel bad, im prob taking this dude away from his family, by the time ill get to work hell be 5 miles from his family and itll take him like 2 weeks to travel back...theyll think hes dead and move the web. i wonder if i should brush him off with the wipers to let him go incase he doesnt realize. well just as soon as this elaborate childrens tale is playing in my head he magically lifts a leg as if to say "have a good work day" and the wind picks him up and off into the grass not 1/2 mile from my place.....its like we were on the same page! so yes, crazy and poss sleep deprived but i thought it was a funny enough story to share.....that im crazy and the science part hasnt completely devoured my imagination! :)

new week!

so last week went slowly but overall was good! ready for a good week...i am motivated, im determined to be in a good mood and enjoy the perks of each day as much as possible....and i got to start the week off with FREE Christophers (this really fance* resturant in C.S.) thank you Crestor! so thats the start of it...the 8th will be a technical month since starting the diet so i will give you an update on my progress then...... :)

thats it for now!